Sometime back a friend of mine sent an sms saying, "the true flavor of a tea is tested when put in hot water. So if you are feeling gloomy today, shed it off....you are God's own favorite cup of tea" .......Oh my God! it surely did put a smile on my face.
Osho had said somewhere once that heaven and hell are not geographical places... they are our states of mind. WE create them. I only realised the truth of the statement these last six- seven months.
I have visited this place called hell and its a very nasty place to spend a lifetime.....And nobody enters with you there and nobody ever can pull you out from this place.
I have cried, I have gone crazy, miserable, frustrated, anxious, tense and cried all over again...I did a lot of brooding on my imagined past bad karmas ....nothing helped. I stopped my meditations.
And then one day as if it was a miracle I pulled myself out of it.
Now I am back. Thank you my blogger friends ....each one of you... I am not mentioning the names here because so many of my friends wrote to me ....thank you so much for writing to me on my mail or the blogger and letting me know that though we may have never seen each other, though we may be having different national identities... there is something which keeps everyone connected.
And I am really happy to be back amongst you all. And I never want to get back to that place again. I may be still standing on the doorway...I dont know....maybe I havent run too far but definitely I have my back towards it... waiting for the big leap....ha ha ha that surely is a dream I watch every-day.
And thank you so much Osho for telling me this : "This is your life. If you laugh, you laugh. If you cry, you cry...no-one else is responsible for you. You alone are responsible for everything in your life."